Gray Hair

Do we dye or do we not dye - or do we (as I do) put in a rinse.

I just had my hair cut and wow, am I ever gray! So, off to the drug store for my regular 'Linen', non-permanent colour rinse. I do toy with just letting it be. In some kinds of lighting I look blond, but in others, like the hairdresser's, it's very gray. The advantage of the non-permanent colour is that I don't get the definite line of gray roots showing, and if I do let it go for awhile it doesn't really look that bad - or am I deluding myself?

The Cat's Away

When the cat's away, the mice will play - what to do, what to do?? DH went away for the weekend and I have the house all to myself. It is now 12:30 a.m. and I'm still up, the TV is on and I just played a computer game. I don't want to go to bed. I knit more on the blanket and checked all my baby seedlings. I can hardly keep my eyes open but I don't want to go to bed. Am I a kid or what? LOL

Dark Poem

Years after my dad had died, I had a really sad dream. When I woke up, I wrote this very dark poem and left it in his antique metal box until now, 19 years later.

Dad's dead
It's been five years
Still
He comes to me at night
My chest hurts so
Why can't I tell them?
Why must no one know?
My sister comes
He turns and runs across the moor
so she won't see
I wake
and cry
and cry
and cry
Cause Dad's dead.

- Daphne

Knitting

I'm knitting a white blanket with little hearts all over it for my new grand-baby due in May. I've made many mistakes in it, but my mother would have said - that's life. So true. The local knitting expert here said "they're not mistakes, they're features". I like that.

This is the second white blanket I have knit. The first one, over eight years ago was for my first grandchild. I was knitting it while I visited with my mother who was then in respite care. She would stroke it and comment on the softness of it. I wrote a poem about that time. One person I loved was leaving me and a new one was coming into my life. I thought it deserved to be memorialized.

61 is just around the corner for me. My dreams for 60 fell a little flat and then I had a vision. I can't remember where or when it happened but it has had a profound impact on me. I saw myself from others eyes. Maybe I was viewing my own funeral, I'm not sure. Anyway the love and admiration was flowing and I was accepting it. That in itself is quite something. I had been bemoaning the fact that I hadn't accomplished anything of any great significance in my life and then all of a sudden I see all these people whom I have known through the years and they think I'm wonderful. Perhaps the most amazing thing about the vision is that I totally accepted the admiration and love of others. All my barriers were down. I actually allowed myself to feel it. When it was over, I had changed. I see now that my whole life has had great significance. God made me and He has been working in and through me all along. I can't go back under that shadow of self-doubt and recriminations.

Recently I was visiting with a terrific woman who is a budding artist. She had accomplished much already but I could see that she was under the shadow of self-doubt. I could hardly believe it as I considered her so talented and just a great person. I didn't say it but I thought to myself - she needs a vision.

A new look...

I know, I know, it's been a while. Today, I decided that I would put a new look on the blog...let me know what you think. As I said in a previous posting, I have decided to use this blog for my own benefit as well as anyone who wants to join or comment.

I have decided to join a gym.....and it's amazing how many ladies of our age are doing the same thing. The gym is a ladies only gym and just comfortably busy, with lots of ages, shapes and sizes to make the intimidation of a large gym with hard bodies and slim women non-existent. It has all the equipment and I sucked it up and had a session with a personal trainer to get started. It has worked really well....mind you, I'm only 3 sessions in but the only downside that I can see, is that with the music they have blaring out of the speakers, my MP3 player has to be at almost full volume!! However, I get to listen to my classical music station and am finding it quite enjoyable. Hopefully the gym sessions will improve my sleeping habits....which haven't been too good of late.

The Olympics have been keeping me interested...although I just can't allow myself to spend the entire day in front of the TV....as tempting as it might be. So I have done some picking and choosing with my favourite being the figure skating of course. I would dearly love to watch the hockey, but I get so up tight that it's just no fun. So I scoot downstairs and putter and then whenever DH cheers I switch to CTV on my computer and watch for a short time and then go back to whatever I was doing. When the score is to our benefit and nearing the end of the game where in all likelihood they will win, then I come back upstairs and watch the end in order to do the "high five" with DH!!

Well...for now, that's it. I know, it's not overly inspiring...but give me time. I'm finding enjoyment in reading other blogs, some weight loss, some cooking and some just very interesting. It can take up a lot of time ....but it's definitely fun time!!....and besides...don't have I have just all the time in the world???? :-)

Slainte!!

Inspiration....

Ok...so I know I haven't posted to this blog in a while, but then neither has anyone else.....

This morning I received a daily inspiration quote from Real Simple and I thought I would share....

You can only perceive real beauty in a person as they get older
- Anouk Aimee


Slainte!!