61 is just around the corner for me. My dreams for 60 fell a little flat and then I had a vision. I can't remember where or when it happened but it has had a profound impact on me. I saw myself from others eyes. Maybe I was viewing my own funeral, I'm not sure. Anyway the love and admiration was flowing and I was accepting it. That in itself is quite something. I had been bemoaning the fact that I hadn't accomplished anything of any great significance in my life and then all of a sudden I see all these people whom I have known through the years and they think I'm wonderful. Perhaps the most amazing thing about the vision is that I totally accepted the admiration and love of others. All my barriers were down. I actually allowed myself to feel it. When it was over, I had changed. I see now that my whole life has had great significance. God made me and He has been working in and through me all along. I can't go back under that shadow of self-doubt and recriminations.

Recently I was visiting with a terrific woman who is a budding artist. She had accomplished much already but I could see that she was under the shadow of self-doubt. I could hardly believe it as I considered her so talented and just a great person. I didn't say it but I thought to myself - she needs a vision.